4 Month Check Up

Although Tray is not quite 4 months old yet, we went in for his 4 month check up last night. He was originally supposed to go in in another week but we will be with Darren in WY next week. So we went in last night instead and found out that Tray has only gained one pound since his 2 month check up. It was quite devastating. He went from being very consistent in the 10th percentile down to being in the very scary 3rd percentile. It is very frustrating for me. Since Tray was born we have had many trials to overcome when it comes to feeding. I have always wanted to nurse my children and I was determined to do so. After every breastfeeding problem imaginable and weeks of tears we were finally able to nurse. It has been wonderful and I really thought we were making progress. He had been gaining weight great and growing like a weed. It was kind of a blow to the stomach to hear he had completely dropped off the chart. Especially because the majority of my days are spent feeding him. When he's hungry he eats, when he's upset he eats, when he wakes up during the night HE EATS! I swear that's all we do. So it was very hard for me to hear that it just hasn't been good enough. So now we get to start experimenting to try to figure out what he will actually eat so he can start gaining the weight that he needs. Its been pretty rough and will probably continue to be a challenge. But I am sure it will make us all stronger :) I found a quote this last week that I decided will be the new motto for our family.. "Every obstacle presents us with an opportunity to improve our current conditions" So that is the light that I am trying to look at this "obstacle" in. And even though things aren't ideal right now we still have so much to be grateful for. Tray is beautiful and so alert and fun. He is developing great and just so smiley! And he is otherwise very healthy. And for that we are very blessed.



Other than that things seem to be going pretty well for us. Darren started working with his dad doing FedEx a few weeks ago and its been great so far. Although Darren has had to go back and forth to Logan alot, and that's hard on all of us. Tray knows his daddy very well and definitely notices when he is gone. We both miss him very much. But hopefully the back-and-forth thing won't last too much longer and we'll finally be able to settle down.